Diamonds sparkle even at night

..Or at least this one does, but let's leave it for later.

Short sentence's day.

It's 5pm and bloody dark.
No sight of sunshine for a week.
Overall mood last days has adapted to the gloomy, grey weather.
Or maybe it's vice versa.

There are few undisputable things in this life.
Bloody balance in completely everything. It's easier to just be/live if you're not thinking too much or not at all. You're constantly missing something.
Missing people that are dear to you.
And it gets worse with every single day.

Strong desire to dissect my heart and put it outside on the balcony so it could drive someone else crazy and let me breathe for at least a moment..

Headphones.
A shelter to hide.
Music.

It was something of an end
Of a lovely a wild thing
So beautiful in the morning
You're beautiful
So beautiful
You're beautiful in the morning

And I can't seem to get it through your head
No matter what I do
I can't seem to get it through your head
That I always love you

..So simple and beautiful.
My Brightest Diamond.

mp3 My Brightest Diamond - Something Of An End

Longing

Late evening strolls to the nearest shop for necessary food items for breakfast can hide tricky pitfalls. And it's impossible to tell when exactly you fell for it.

So, I was joyfully walking down the road back home and swinging my "shopping bag" as it came! A bunch of memory flashes and strange revelations!!

...University will start next week, my dear friends will be back in town and my "old life" - is returning in full motion. Not that it's anything bad, but I have changed. Maybe not that radically but enough to finally realize that I don't want everything as it was half a year ago to stay that way no longer than necessary.

Being back home is great, but I'm starting to get nervous and stressed about all that happens around. As odd as it seems to me now, in Aarhus I had obtained an inner peace what I have lost again.

And (gonna repeat myself again) I'm truly and terribly missing Aarhus, ASB, my dorm, the people there, my room... must be some sort of emotion delay.

Sigh!

Traffic jams and conjunctions

As for trying to keep my head busy with only few traffic lanes (as the opposite appears to be overly harmful), there is always something sneaking in between creating a weird everlasting balance. Was it the entire doctor-hospital issue that, I fear, hasn't quite reached its grand finale, but let's cross fingers for the best, or my messed up internship.

Nonetheless, the other side of the coin seems to scratch more lines or leave deeper footprints in the memory that tend to be kept longer than just for a blink of an eye.

..the morning/evening breeze gently going through your hair..what do you feel? what can you feel?
..definite evidence that autumn is pulling at the swaying tree leaves.
..regreting that you can't capture priceless moments of talks with your friends from the bottom of the heart.
.. "Those three words, are said too much, they're not enough." too true.
..music - caters the soul, lulls in the ears, perfectly fitting the mood. Love the sound of acoustic guitar!
..all-embracing peace on the country side on a wonderful saturday evening.

Brief note

Must apologise for not posting at all lately. But you know, I've been sick.
And the catch for the whole thing is that it's not moving towards a healthful and sparkling Anita in full-scale at the right pace. So, my doctor felt it was the right day to make me even more nervous and terrified and decided to send me back to the hospital again for additional tests and so on...for few days or a week, or more...
At least she left me a microscopic hope that the hospital-people would MAYBE let me go home at the evenings, hah, have to force myslef not to count much on that.
Well, we'll see how it goes!

Take good care of yourself, my beloved ones!!!

It's those tiny little sparks!

"True friends are the ones who never leave your heart, even if they leave your life for awhile. Even after years apart, you pick up with them right where you left off."

"I haven't seen you in a while, yet I often imagine all your expressions. I haven't spoken to you recently, but many times I hear your thoughts. Good friends must not always be together. It is the feeling of oneness, when distant that proves a lasting."

Got nothing much to add to the upper mentioned quotes as they perfectly state what I had on my mind yesterday (and in general anyway). Simply be thankful that there are at least some very wonderful people in this screwed up world we live in!

A voice on your cell phone or few really unexpected messages in one of your uncountable electronic mailboxes (I wonder, has anyone added via post-sent letters to the dying out species?) - enough to put a big, silly smile upon your face and a warm, positive thought blanket round your heart.

..one of my rare attempts to make a self portrait :)

Regarding everything else - have started my internship that was interrupted under constraint and still dealing with consequences from being sick.

PS. As far as the file hosting site comes back to life, hopefully soon I'll post some treats for the ears!

PPS. Here are the promised ear-treats! Caution: they are very catchy, humming along guaranteed!

mp3 Frou Frou - Breathe In (Remix)

mp3 Office - The Big Bang Jump!

Update

So, an update to my health condition as it's the most important (and probably only) central event around which my small universe has been circling for the last weeks.

Quoting my doctor I am not "completely well, but there's a tendency to the right way".

I've been monitored quite carefully lately and looks like I won't get rid of the visits to the doctor so soon, nor the medicine that has to be taken for the sake of recovery whose list becomes longer with each visit. Only if it all could help my irritating lack of any sort of enegry...can't remember when was the last time (primary school maybe) when I went to bed so bloody early feeling too tired to keep an eye open.

Then been forbidden to do any hard physical work, eat ice-cream, apparently drink any sort of alcohol as well (no beer! jeez) and prescribed to when-it's-not-so-hot-outside evening strolls. Man..I feel like an old lady!!!

*Yaaaawn* sleeping time has come! Good night folks!
Oh, and Beware of germs! ;)

Official Announcement!

Nothing has happened to my blog, as far as I know. It's still floating somewhere around the World Wide Web firmly sticking to the "web's threads" and is meant to stay there for quite a while.

Another story is that it has been neglected for a very long time...for an excusable reason. As I had mentioned weeks before, I was feeling sick, consequently visiting a doctor. Anyway, to make a long and painful story short: the treatment was rather "not so good" and I ended in hospital.

So there you have - a whole week spent in the oh-so-cosy (can you feel the sarcasm?) apartment of the 4-white-wall-room building. Don't get me too wrong I'm more than thankful of getting there - at last I can feel some interest about the rest of the world re-appearing in me :)
Ohh, and bless the nurses! that job is...huh...

No matter how, have to recover a lot of energy and brain cells, but I'm back!